Spiritual seeking is a holy act. And one that requires a sensitive discernment. It is not a mistake that we seek, even if we have the sense that we are not finding. Seeking our deepest knowing and connection to life is a sacred movement that often culminates in spiritual experiences, or simply the knowing of a deep longing of the heart. But without our grounded knowing, our boundaries and clarity, we can become overwhelmed and confused. The fulfillment of our journey is not a single moment in time, but a knowing that the depth of what we are is never apart from us. Making a relationship with this, which eventually becomes our integrated self, is often a profoundly healing process. When this connection is found to be true without the sense of having fulfilled our dreams or our gifts, then we are in sacred territory, having laid down our personal agendas in favor of this moment and what it is presenting us with. Don’t lose heart if your life doesn’t appear as a spiritual apex. And don’t lose heart if confusion arises. This moment, however humble, however broken, can be a cracked egg which reveals something much more valuable. In it, inside of our own knowing, is a love that knows no bounds, a maturity and clarity that is our birthright. This lays down the pressure of having to fix ourselves. Love in this context doesn’t seek an object, or a love story. It it not dramatic. It is a broken hearted seeing, a unshielded awareness that spreads throughout space and time, and finds itself unable to separate out any individual thing as being unworthy, unwilling to stop learning, and unneeding of mending. It is a preference for the truth.

Finding support for our seeking of the deepest parts of ourselves can be challenging. We must simultaneously find our sovereignty as we open up, and maintain our discernment as we seek for guidance and support. I have a special interest in this individuation process, learning boundaries while being open, and sensitive, and the discernment of real and grounded truth that heals, rather than confuses us. Learning to deeply listen to ourselves is the very first step.